Lately, I’ve been feeling distant from God… and if I’m being honest, I didn’t really know how to fix it.

Life has been a lot.

I work full-time, I have five kids, and over 200 houseplants to take care of. I stay busy constantly. On top of that, my car’s transmission went out, and I’ve been struggling financially, even while giving all my extra time just trying to make more money.

And in the middle of all that… I started feeling far from Him.

The enemy will always try to keep us distracted from what matters most... God, our Creator.

And I know the truth: when we put Him first, everything else follows.

I still pray every day. I know He hears me. I trust Him.

But deep down, I also know… I’m not where I used to be.

And it makes me wonder…

Is that why the enemy has been able to creep into my dreams?

Six years ago, when I got clean from my drug addiction, it was only by the grace of God. I had nothing but faith that life would be better on the other side.

And it was.

Back then, I made less money, had less, and yet… Everything felt so full.

Because I was in my Word daily. I was close to Him.

So how do I fix this?

I come back.

Back to His Word—keeping it fresh in my mind and in my heart.

Even if I’ve read Psalms twelve times… I’ll read it again.

Because God reveals new things when we slow down enough to listen.

I choose to speak life instead of negativity.

To not just pray…but believe, the moment I pray, that it is already done.

That is faith.

And without faith… we have nothing.

I started this blog again not just hoping… but believing that I can connect with someone who feels the same way I do right now.

If that’s you, you’re not alone.

And if you made it this far… I’m really glad you’re here.

If this meant something to you… 🌿

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